SOMETIMES I HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER…

… And sometimes the days look like anxiety, self-doubt, confusion, panic, pain, restlessness, FOMO.

Today was one of these days. I woke up, not quite rested. Had an allergic reaction after breakfast which rendered me brain fogged, fatigued and struggling to breathe. My period has finally decided to make an appearance after a few days of not being quite sure.

Struggling to get a moment to myself all day booking holidays and cooking and caring for my children. I need time off. I desperately need to get out of London and spend tome in a forest, on the beach. In nature. So I was determined.

I was meant to take breaks and be mindful of the first signs of stress, tiredness and exhaustion .

But I wasn’t and in the evening I broke.

Disregarded my own boundaries.

Skipped shower.

Didn’t do my usual skin and hair care routine.

Didn’t stretch.

Just imploded & abandoned myself.

It’s midnight and here I am, writing this post on the phone, feeling unwell, anxious. It happens.

Tomorrow is a new day.

And each day is a fresh start.

And just because today was further away from my ideal, it doesn’t mean that tomorrow won’t be closer.

Healing is not linear. You’re never really “healed”.

You just learn how to care for yourself, when to let go and love yourself even when you don’t feel lovable. Being kind to yourself even if you don’t rise up to the standard you set for yourself.

Because you are worthy, lovable and you matter.

Warmly, Olivia